God brings miracles

This morning I dreaded dropping her off. I sat in the dark in tears as she nursed praying that God would take away my debt that I incurred as a stupid young adult. Prayed that He’d make a way. Prayed that He’d make sick leave appear in my folder...

Finding release

Yesterday our girl had a situation that was scary, intense, hurtful and new. After some calming conversations, some praying, a trip to the doctor and lots of cuddles and time to rest, she was good to go and seemed fine. This morning she woke before daylight and seemed okay....

Prayer for the slaves

Dear God, today I’m praying for invisibility. You know I feel silly asking that sometimes but You also know I 100% mean it. Lord, You see the babies, children, teens and adults that have lost their freedom and are being forced to endure unimaginable traumas and abuse. God, I...

Save our littles

I got lax. I got immune. I became too comfortable. I became too share happy. I became too social media driven and addicted.  I forgot the rules of internet safety. And I made my daughter more of a target than she already is.  In college, I became aware of...

Today I was a grouch

Today I feel like I did everything wrong. I woke up with horrible allergies and my nose literally dripped and ran all day long. I couldn’t find my asthma inhaler so I couldn’t take my girl on the walk like I’d promised the night before because my chest was...

Advice From My Momma About Boyfriends

My mama told me as a teen that when you’re dating you are getting the very best of the person. More than once, I remember her saying “this is as good as it’s going to get. Are you okay with that?” She meant that when marriage comes, you can’t...

“I swallowed some fin. I made mistake mama.”

Tonight, I’m thankful as I lay her in her own bed in our home.  I’m thankful to not be sleeping beside her in a big hospital bed like we did last night.  I’m thankful for her toddler honesty as she cried and admitted she’d swallowed something she shouldn’t have....

My Grace is Sufficient

Something I think and say to myself often is the phrase “His grace is sufficient.” Today I looked up what those words mean using thesaurus.com. I think the synonyms are powerful. When I’m struggling, when I make mistakes, when I jack something slam up, when I yell, when I...

Our Miracle Boy

On June 11th, I was in a small daycare on the Outer Banks and got a message from my mom “Abi is having an emergency c-section. Don’t know anything else.”  I responded with “our abi? As in my sister?” I called and got no response. I dropped my little...

Today I let her fall.

Are you angry? Are you sad? Do you doubt? Are you questioning why things are happening? Are you frustrated with the path you’re on? Are you struggling with life in a world that feels like it’s in shambles? Have you taken it to God? Have you expressed those emotions...

I Pray. For her and for them.

I pray she loves the flowers like her momma. I pray she’ll like sports like her daddy.I pray she’ll work hard like her Grandy Blue.I pray she is strong like her Grandpa.I pray she can give wonderful gifts to bless people like her NeeMa.I pray she can laugh at herself...

Let us not be silent in the night

Let us not be silent in the night. Let us join in the fight. Heaven help us, they criedAnother one has died.  Jesus,Please reach down and Your people please Save,We can’t take another ripping wave,Ripped apart, ripped in heart,You know the tortures, know the pains, Please Lord, calm these acid rains,Rains...

Standing in the Gap

Today I saw an old friend from my school days. He slammed on breaks in the middle of the road, beeping his horn. He rolled the window down as he spotted me standing beside a friend’s car talking. I honestly looked around confused thinking “he’s talking to me?!” “Hey...

Sweet Memories and Shelling May Peas

Tonight I sat on the couch watching a cartoon movie with the Husband and the Girl. One dog at my feet and another curled up by my side. My mind went back to the days of peas and snap beans with my granddaddy, Grandy. I remember him sitting in...

A prayer for our children

Dear Lord,Be with our kids. Please love on them extra good right now, Father. They are struggling and most don’t understand it or even recognize it. I know I didn’t recognize when I was drowning in life as a kid and teen. You saw me then and You see...

Pandemic Trauma in our Babies and Toddlers

I’ve been having a lot of other toddler moms mention to me that their babies are extra whiny, not sleeping well or sleeping a lot more, emotional, extra clingy, short tempered, really silly or almost chaotic and it’s making parents more overwhelmed than they already are.   I’ve been quick...

Yesterday we walked

Yesterday we walked. With a heavy heart, we walked and we talked. Because she sees me.  In the grocery store, greeting all types of people we pass, she sees me. In the parking lot, giving my cart to someone or helping an elderly person load their car, she sees...

A Broken Friend

Lately I’ve been struggling with being a “bad” friend.  Three of my friends are struggling deeply with life, two are far away and I’m feeling off.  My already small circle has become a little broken. My heart is heavy and I need to express my hurt to someone but...

For Mr. Winston

I imagine the smile that lit his being as he looked down at hands that are now tremor free. I know his steps were sturdy and his back straight as he approached the Almighty on the throne. I bet he’s radiant as he sits before a piano made of...

Campmeeting

I’ve been thinking about Camp Meeting lately. Probably weird, I know, but it’s been in my mind and the memories have been oh so sweet. I saw a picture this morning of the camp meeting kitchen with it’s sawdust floors, long supper table with bench seating. I can see...

A prayer for marriage

Dear God,Today my heart is heavy for couples who are currently living in strife. I pray for those husbands and wives who aren’t seeing eye to eye. The couples’ whose discords and wrongs seem impossible to rectify. Lord, You hear the conversations that speak of chasms too deep and...